The Eighth

Today marks our eighth month together. Boyfriend and I picked ilLido as we ate there on our first date and I had a pasta-coma after trying theirs. Four experiences here and the standard of the food has been fluctuating. 

This is a cold dish which is really sweet. I think it is made with honeydew.

// Potato ball w/ breadcrumbs //

// Parma Ham //

Complimented w/ cherry tomatoes to ease the salty chunks in your mouth.

 // Foie Gras //

I think they serve really good foie gras.

 // Ravoli w/ beef fillings, topped with truffles and foie gras //

 I wanted fettuccine all along, so the chef made me another dish.

// Fettuccine w/ Wagyu beef chunks and truffles // 

 Lastly,

// Miyazaki Wagyu Beef topped w/ truffles //

Was told that this is the only restaurant serving Miyazaki beef in Singapore.

 // Chocolate Mousse Cake //

Mini surprise arranged by Ben when he made the reservation.

 The grumpy manager introduced these alien pumpkins before we left. They are actually edible!

P/S. B, Thank you for the dinner. I love you.

Cold Darkness Under A Dead Man's Breath

That moment when words hit the tip of your spine and causes you to bite your lips and grin. That is when you know your heart has stopped.

"Time is a healer" you hear the others said. But the moment of hurt burns right now, burns terrible.

Losing myself in this battle, I raised my fist with a marker in anger. Finding spaces on the wall, penning anger into scribbles and metamorphose into a loathsome monster.What leads me to who I am today, that's something you can never take away. 

Shipwrecking

Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. 


-Bernice Johnson Reagon


I am paralyzed. Life is shit. K thanks bye.

Molding feelings into lines.

To my Addiction- Ben,

I miss the times when we sink in between the sheets, ready to catch a wink. The blanket engulf us and our love till I woke up tangled in your limbs. During sleepless night, through bloodshot eyes, I'd watched you sleep and it explains the feeling of complete.

You are the first special one who navigated me through the darkest night, gave warmth that consumes my soul, fought the hurricanes in my chest and filled the emptiness in my hollow bones. I could be a terrible lover but I will try. In the absence of physical, I hope I can reach you with my words. I will be the keeper of your heart, your soul and the love we have shared.

Yours truly.

I belong with you

I longed for sweet caresses,

And the warmest kisses that would best me.

I can't forget how they taste,

As we sank in between in the sheets.

3.5 days left

Ben and I have been dealing pretty well with this long-distance-relationship. Though there were fights and disagreement, I believed we bring about to understand one another better. Guessed nobody could understand how elated I am as 5th April draws closer. I will be on an airplane to pursue my happiness in Sydney for a couple of weeks with him. I am so grateful that my parents are being so supportive about this presently. Now the odd feeling of flying there, and back alone is lingering around me therefore I need distractions during the flight. Hur hur hur.

Grateful

When I find myself in a woeful fight
I know I have your heart
To keep me strong through the night.

Mat Kearney - Breathe In Breathe Out

Keeping Faith

I don't want to speak these words
Cause I, I don't want to make things any worse.
I'd turn things around and run away
Just you and I.

I want to bottle up these moments
Like a fragrance.
Never let it got stale
And never let it fade away.

I'd uncorked the bottle,
It would be like living the moment
All over again.

Valentine's Day

Came home to Ben's surprise from Sydney. Happy Valentine's Day Baby!